It’s right there

Last Saturday it topped 100 degrees in Palm Springs, and while everyone else huddled near their air conditioners, I hit the pool. It’s a fairly big, well-maintained pool for the community where I’d been staying as a friend’s guest. I had her place mostly to myself, and, at tea time on this particular day, I had the pool to myself as well. No distractions. Bliss.

I’m not a great swimmer, but I swam a set of laps in my awkward way and played with kicks and water-robics to work out some kinks. I also sat for a while in the shadier of two hot tubs and said hallelujah when I realized its jets were positioned perfectly to simultaneously massage the small of my back and my feet. Yes.

Granted, hot tubs are counterintuitive on hot days, but desert dryness makes it work. Feeling sufficiently cooked after 10 minutes, I jumped back into the pool to cool off. The sun was already working through my last layer of SPF 50, so I splashed over to a shady corner and stood up. I looked back out at the pool’s sunlit surface, and noticed the water.

That sounds weird, I know. Obviously, I was already aware of the water. But it wasn’t until I just stood there and looked that I truly saw it.

After a moment, I realized my mind has been so well-trained to interpret the water surface as “silvery” that I’d overlooked its spectacular colors. It rippled with circles of bright sunlight, deep sky blue, a nearly-neon light turquoise, a dark turquoise carried up from the pool floor, flashing rings of lavender and orange, and patches of mauve and ochre reflections of the arid hills. Every bit of the surface was alive with motion because both I and the air were breathing.

I couldn’t believe that in all these years, this was the first time I’d ever stood in a pool that particular way, with the sun at my back, “merely” watching sunlight cast such specific, amazing colors across the surface. How much else hadn’t I been seeing?

With the sun still behind me, I stepped out to the center of the pool—just 5 feet deep—and looked down at my own silhouette. Around it, sunlight rippled in bright refracted patterns over the turquoise floor. I moved my hands in the water to speed up and slow the shifting rings and lopsided ovals. In a marvelous illusion, they appeared to emanate from my shadow self and interact with every other drop of water and flash of light.

Years ago, a beloved friend wrote this on my birthday: “Life is a garden, not a road. Where you go matters less than what you notice.” For a long time, seeing has been part of my practice and my gift. But sometimes I forget and my vision dulls.

I needed the water’s reminder to keep practicing. To revel in the interconnected, restless aliveness of what’s right in front of me. So much becomes clearer when I look where the sun is pointing.

Holly Thomas is a member of the Sourcing The Way Council and a writer, editor, writing coach, and artist. This is the second of a series in which she’ll share “glimpses” that come to her through meditation, Sourcing, the occasional “bolt from the blue, ” or as in this post, simply noticing. 

 

Allium: A Glimpse of Grace

Holly Thomas is a member of the Sourcing The Way Council and a writer, editor, writing coach, and artist. This is the first of a series in which she’ll share “glimpses” that come to her through meditation, Sourcing, and the occasional “bolt from the blue.”

I was listening to a radio interview with a holocaust survivor who had decided to tell his story after 70 years of hiding his concentration camp tattoo and keeping quiet. What convinced him to speak out was seeing a picture of himself on a website that claims the holocaust never happened. The site had labeled as fake a photo of the emaciated child he’d been at Auschwitz. Every time he showers he still thinks of the gas chambers. Asked his most vivid memory of being 4 years old, he said “the smell of burning human flesh.”

The glimpse

I put my head in my hands, and for a few seconds something shifted behind my tears. I, or I AM, felt and “experienced” the immensity and range of what people go through. I felt this immensity as what Experience experiences through us. I perceived it as how Source/God/All-that-is, by any name, discovers what it’s like to be embodied in human form and to explore existence ruthlessly, beautifully, or both, in every possible variation on human life. I got a glimpse of that totality—the expanse and the intimacy, the detachment and the care.

Often when my awareness leaps to some ‘higher order’ perspective, an image appears in my mind’s eye. It usually stays just long enough for me to register it, then disappears. This time, the image was an enormous sphere made up of every human life. I could see each person as alive and distinct, standing alone inside the cupped shape of his or her own existence. The cups were crowded together, but each held only one person.

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The result was much like the spherical cluster of individual blossoms in a giant allium. Within each blossom, the stamens and pistil have plenty of room, even though the sphere itself looks crowded.

Magnetic attraction

Zoomed in close enough to watch one person speaking, I simultaneously sensed our union within some living sphere, and the sharp necessity of our individuality. When the image zoomed back out, I saw the sphere’s entirety and felt a relentless curiosity—the Curiosity of whatever un-nameable Source we arise from.

At first that curiosity was frighteningly ‘other’, but as soon as I named my fear, compassion replaced it. Not my own compassion, but a sense of the Source’s concern for the human experience. Source may be an artist devoted to experiencing everything that is possible to experience, even when that includes vast cruelties and injustices. But in that moment, what I sensed at its center was goodwill—an affinity for love, if not love itself. Source seemed almost magnetically attracted to how we, and perhaps all sentient beings, encounter, recognize, and embody Grace. I felt Its sureness that our lives, as part of the entire living whole of individuality, somehow make Grace more real.

What I sensed is that Source, by whatever name, is not only curious, but kind. Maybe that’s because kindness fascinates it. Or maybe it’s because Source is as hopeful as it is inventive.

Perhaps what prompted the beginning of individuated consciousness was as much the yearning for company as a desire to experience and explore. Perhaps when Source set itself on a path toward embodying that consciousness, it discovered that beings capable of Grace do more to satisfy its yearning. Perhaps hope and kindness are things sentient beings inventedgifts Source cherishes and wants more of.

These many words fail to capture what it felt like for a few moments to sense into the All of us living as all of us. To connect with the potential majesty in every act of being, and the particular beauty in acts of being that offer courage, hope, forgiveness, grace, and love.

Or…

The practice of truth-seeking requires that I ask myself whether this vision was wishful thinking. Maybe there is no goodwill in some original Source of being. Maybe Source is immensely indifferent and our capacities for compassion and grace are just two flecks of color on an infinite canvas of creation. That’s not my preferred version of All That Is, but would it change anything? Each of us can still embody Grace. If Source exists but doesn’t care, our ability to look one another in the eyes and see mystery there, and to love into that mystery, is something from which even Source itself might learn.

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Discover the Freedom of Sourcing!

The name Sourcing The Way begs the question of what we mean by ‘sourcing’. For us, Sourcing is both a way of living our most authentic path of liberation and freedom as well as an extremely practical tool that can empower all of our day-to-day decisions.

A Way of Life

Sourcing is a way of life. By using our innate ability to feel into possibilities, we activate potential for reaching beyond what we currently know. Sourcing guides decision-making and illuminates the path of greatest ease and joy. This way of living enables us to make choices that carry the most aliveness and provides a flow that exceeds anything we could have thought into being.

Sourcing can take many forms. For example, it may involve feeling energy move in our bodies or receiving information from the Field in thought form. In all cases, this ability adds a layer to our experiences that stretches beyond the physical realm. Sourcing expands past the five human senses and involves listening deeply beneath words and behaviors.

A Transformational Process

Sourcing is a process of opening our minds and hearts to receive helpful information from the deepest possible place within ourselves, which is the source of our being. As we open in this manner, we discover that there is a wealth of practical guidance available to us that doesn’t seem to come from our own thinking.

At first, this may take the form of subtle nudges to go in one direction or another, in the context of daily life. With practice, the information becomes much richer, encompassing words, imagery, sounds, and even epiphanies. These “transmissions” will arrive in whatever forms we are able to receive; and as we become more and more open, we find that we are able to download, instantaneously, bigger and bigger transmissions.

Sourcing is also bidirectional in that we can have a conversation with the source of our being. The result of doing so often enough is to become absorbed in our own source while still experiencing the world around us. This leads to progressively more awakened states of Self-realization. Therefore, a major benefit of Sourcing is spiritual advancement.

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Setting the Stage for Self-Realization

From the perspective of a world evolving in time, my singular vocation, or life’s play, is the ignition of Self-realization, enlightenment, and beyond in as many people and systems as possible, in the least amount of time possible.

Yet in truth, no time is required and universal enlightenment is already attained. Enlightenment is not a temporal phenomenon. It is not an experience. Experiences always have a beginning, a middle, and an end. Enlightenment is the one thing, which is actually not a thing, that has no relationship to time. It already is, it is untouched by birth and death, and you are it. You are it, we are it, and this is it. Even if we do not yet burn with the liberating fire of Self-realization, we are already enlightenment.

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Discovering Love as Your True Nature

Recently I was asked to recommend a practice for discovering that we are love, for recognizing love as our own true nature. Rather than inventing something or searching for someone else’s answer, I responded with a description of an experiment in “beaming love” that I’ve been living for the past few years. And while reflecting on my own journey, I realized that discovering that I am love is the same as “finding true love.”

One of my greatest wishes is that we all find true love! Here’s a way that I know will work…

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At the boarding gate for my flight from Mumbai to Dubai

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Realizing the Ultimate Source of Peace, Happiness, and Flow

By some miracle, we humans have the experience of life, and we have the experience that everything in life comes from something else. Through investigation, and given enough time and resources, we always seem to be able to find the source of whatever it is that we are investigating. This ability to inquire is certainly one of our greatest gifts. We are born with the capacity to explore life and discover the source of it. And when we find the source of life, we also find the source of peace, happiness, and flow…

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Confluence of the Indus and Zanskar Rivers

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You Are Your Tribe

I’ve had the urge for a while to write about what it is like doing what we do, and to share part of the story from an experiential perspective. To do this I’ll be speaking to everyday stuff with everyday-speak, adding a sprinkle of esoterics.

As with all start-ups or entrepreneurial initiatives, coming to understand who your peeps really are and what you really bring takes time, not to mention figuring out what the value is.

Jeff and I had a pretty good sense of what we bring when we set out in 2013, but it wasn’t until we started practicing properly that we really got to know where the gems are. We are currently in year three, and we have learned so much about who we are, how we can serve, what capacities are our forte, how we mix as a team, and who our tribe is.

“The distance you can lead other people is the distance you have traveled yourself.”
    –Laroques des Alberes

So, what do I mean by ‘tribe’? Well, for me, I’m referring to a group of people who are genuinely interested in who you are, and, in our case, who share (important!) a similar desire for growth and evolution. The funny thing about understanding who one’s peeps are, is that along the way you come to see that your tribe basically has the same underlying needs that you do (or did), and thanks to your experiences and lessons in life, and how you handled them, you are perfectly positioned to help your tribe (or audience) solve their problem.

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