When I knew my gut could be trusted…and 3 things I learned along the way!


Have you ever felt the answer to a question or a circumstance in your gut, while the world around you is saying something different…?

I have.

The story I am about to share with you has helped broaden my understanding for how my gut(-feel) is a refined instrument and a trustworthy – and worthy – source.

The unseen tapestry…

My experience is telling me that there are many layers of information available in each situation (a tapestry of sorts). And to the extent that I am able to avoid having a preferred outcome in mind, I will open up to an equal extent to these added layers of information, leading to a deeper and richer experience. Or, expressed in another way – leading to a path of least resistance.

There is an enormous web of interconnected layers of information surrounding us all the time. There are the most immediate ones that are linked to our personal experience, then there are the ones that are linked to the people around us and the way we are connected. The richness of this web is extensive. Based on my own experience, trying to force a preferred outcome to happen is just as fruitful as trying to squeeze water from a stone. Not that preferred outcomes never happen – they can and they do. However, if they do, they usually come with a lot of effort and they cause a lot of bumps along the way.

I have been cultivating my intuition and gut-felt sense (e.g. deep listening, listening for aliveness) since 2005. During this time I have come to integrate this practice into all areas of my life. I use it in my decision-making process, to find clarity and to understand which direction is resonant, and to identify next steps. It has been, and continues to be, a deeply profound and rewarding journey and – for me – a way of life.
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You Are Your Tribe

I’ve had the urge for a while to write about what it is like doing what we do, and to share part of the story from an experiential perspective. To do this I’ll be speaking to everyday stuff with everyday-speak, adding a sprinkle of esoterics.

As with all start-ups or entrepreneurial initiatives, coming to understand who your peeps really are and what you really bring takes time, not to mention figuring out what the value is.

Jeff and I had a pretty good sense of what we bring when we set out in 2013, but it wasn’t until we started practicing properly that we really got to know where the gems are. We are currently in year three, and we have learned so much about who we are, how we can serve, what capacities are our forte, how we mix as a team, and who our tribe is.

“The distance you can lead other people is the distance you have traveled yourself.”
    –Laroques des Alberes

So, what do I mean by ‘tribe’? Well, for me, I’m referring to a group of people who are genuinely interested in who you are, and, in our case, who share (important!) a similar desire for growth and evolution. The funny thing about understanding who one’s peeps are, is that along the way you come to see that your tribe basically has the same underlying needs that you do (or did), and thanks to your experiences and lessons in life, and how you handled them, you are perfectly positioned to help your tribe (or audience) solve their problem.

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Sacred World Tour

I left Seattle on October 8 for an extended journey in service to humanity’s evolution. My first stop was the San Francisco Bay Area, where I spent two incredible weeks with “sacred subtle activists” connected with the Gaiafield Project and had the opportunity to dip into the Bioneers and Science and Nonduality conferences. On October 16, while meditating on a mountaintop – yes, really… in the Santa Cruz Mountains – I received a spontaneous transmission of spiritual and soul healing and experienced, in an incredibly gentle way, the release of psychological death.

After ten beautiful days of family time and self-care in North Carolina, I continued on to London with a commitment to support transformation for the financial services sector. My business partner in Sourcing the Way, Maria Baeck, lives in Canary Wharf, which is one of the major financial hubs in the world. Our approach to industry transformation includes both exoteric and esoteric aspects: We work with key individuals in the industry who are absolutely committed to life-affirming (r)evolution of that industry, and we work with the transpersonal heart and consciousness of the industry as a higher-order being, or superorganism.

Since my psychological death (and Maria’s as well, for that matter), the potency of our subtle/esoteric work has seemingly jumped off the scale. For brevity and readability’s sake, the depths and details of the consciousness technologies we have developed will be shared elsewhere. Suffice it to say for the moment that in the case of industry transformation, the process begins with realizing oneness with the industry as a whole and with the corporations that predominate. Then, both for and as the inner heart and consciousness of these entities we verify that there is an awakened desire to transform in service to life. (We find that this is almost always the case; and when it’s not the case, it’s not yet right timing for transformation.) Then, both for and as these entities, we make a number of specific commitments to realize transformation for the optimal well-being of ALL.

It is typical that within a few days or weeks (at most) of working in this fashion, we start to see in the media – or hear about through back channels – significant advances, breakthroughs, and/or shifts. Our first few experiments involved Ebola (the next day I read about an experimental vaccine that was 100% effective in treating monkeys), Israel-Palestine (a ceasefire was announced two days later… and obviously there’s still plenty of work to do), Ukraine (a ceasefire was announced the next day, and again there’s plenty of work left to do), and a number of corporations that shall remain nameless, but which seemed to shift in ways that at least we perceived to be positive and life-aligned.

One of my personal favorites is the story of a coaching client who was teaching a seminar to 10,000 employees at one of the world’s largest oil companies. In one of our sessions, we were inspired to connect with the inner heart and consciousness of this multinational corporation in order to support it “in its highest expression, consciously flourishing for the optimal well-being of ALL.” Three days later, our client emailed to say that various computer systems had been acting up in bizarre ways, that everything felt shaky, that she felt a strong need to ground and take salt baths, etc. When we reconnected with the inner heart and consciousness of the corporation, we received that it was trying to get our attention, that it was announcing its transformation, and that all we needed to do was commit to support that, without needing to know how or what form it would take. Soon after we did this, our client reported that everything had settled down in “the field.” However, in the weeks following, the price of oil plummeted, rendering the Tar Sands uneconomical and reshaping the global energy markets…

Of course, all of these anecdotes could simply be coincidences; and we can offer no conventional explanations for how esoteric work “behind the veil of separation” might influence super complex systems that are believed to operate according to the rules of causality and locality. Perhaps one day scientists will discover that the beautiful indeterminacy of super complex systems opens up the possibility of nonlocal and acausal connectivity on a macroscopic scale. In the meantime, we are intrigued by the extremely high correlation of doing subtle work and then being surprised by unexpected shifts. The correlation feels to be about 0.8 for the first year; and we sense that it has been rising since our psychological deaths. And, yes, we would welcome a way to study this scientifically!

A strong intention of this “world tour” is to connect with sacred sites. During two of my previous trips to the United Kingdom, Maria and I visited Avebury, an ancient and subtly vibrant Neolithic destination with stone circles, avenues, and burial mounds. This time we visited Stonehenge with Dr. Jude Currivan, who is on a scientific advisory board for both Stonehenge and Avebury and who has great expertise regarding the archaeology of sacred sites around the world.

In honoring and entering into relationship with the ancient monuments and temples of humanity that remain today – unifying us across epochs of time – we sense that we are being gifted with greater capacities to offer healing to both the human collective and Mother Earth. Our next stop is India, where we will spend a month working with the School of Inspired Leadership and visiting sacred sites along the way.

Maria, Jeff, and Jude at Stonehenge on 11 November 2015

Meanwhile, the Paris attacks and an outbreak of violence in Africa and Europe have shifted our focus from industry transformation to healing the underlying causes of terrorism, which bombings and retaliatory policies will never accomplish. The very first words that came to me in meditation after the #ParisAttacks were: “This is the swan song of separation.” Then a little bit later I was given the following:

The forces that would separate themselves are fighting with ever more zeal because on some level they’re aware, rightly, that the Apocalypse is approaching. However, the deeper meaning of the Apocalypse is dropping the veil of separation, and in this sense the forces of division are correct: The end is near for the world based on separation. Ironically, many are fighting in the name of Unity and will receive what they’re fighting for, if not in the forms imagined.

As an “intervention,” Maria and I were inspired, individually and then working in circle with another friend, to realize oneness with humanity and then, both for and as humanity, to cultivate “unity and harmony in the one family of Abraham” and to liberate “disunity and disharmony in the one family of Abraham.” Later, in relation to Islamic State I could feel a great force saying, “We will not be trampled on any longer!” This gave me a visceral sense of my brothers and sisters, the sons and daughters of Ishmael, however estranged we may all be in the present world situation of reinforced separation.

Another meditative insight is that the overall context can be likened to a modern-day version of the Mahabharata – a collective (in this case) spiritual initiation conjoined with an utterly tragic and maximally convoluted war on seemingly external battlefields. To the extent that the situation is convoluted beyond what our historical conditioning can handle, we are being forced to resolve the problem from a higher (as in more unified) level of consciousness and awareness. In other words, we are being challenged to evolve our minds, our hearts, and our souls… and the invitation to let go of that which we believe separates us from our neighbors is becoming more and more insistent.

There is much more that could be shared from our meditative inquiries thus far into patterns of violence. An interesting follow-on is what happened the night of my birthday, November 21, when Maria experienced debilitating jaw pain that was apparently linked to global terrorism. It seems that, in showing up with a total commitment to serve the collective healing of this issue, the issue showed up in us (physically for Maria), albeit in a different and thankfully subtler form. By engaging in much the same way that we work with our advanced clients, we were able to resolve the jaw pain; and our sense is that there will also be an overall lessening in the intensity of violence in the coming days and weeks. Meanwhile, we will remain open and continue to address, systematically, whatever symptoms may arise, knowing that the results go far beyond what can be locally or causally explained.

The following night, walking back along the docks from our favorite Indian restaurant, Maria and I were inquiring into a persistent cough that I have had to sometimes greater though mostly lesser degrees for a long time. She heard the words “speaking truth” and had an intuitive sense that I was holding back from speaking what I know, which was certainly the case. To share this openly what is, for us, a nearly continuous flow of the miraculous, beyond “reasonable” explanations, is risky from a conventional perspective. And yet, the part of me that feared taking risks, being deeply seen, and being shunned for speaking truth is what died on October 16. So, on the spot I committed to speak truth, whatever Truth has to say, come what may… Literally that very second a firework launched from the roof of a nearby building. It was not a holiday – Guy Fawkes Night had come and gone – and, truly, that was the only firework we saw or heard all evening.

“Being Learning” – Introduction to Living Realization

Transitioning into a new way of thinking and being is a process. As Jeff Vander Clute and I were introduced to Sourcing the Way (STW) back in 2013 it became apparent that STW has a consciousness of its own and that it is not just Jeff and I that are supporting its evolution, it’s the three of us together!

In a recent blog post, Organizational Realization: A new way of leadership, I made reference to the experience that all organizations have a consciousness of its own and when there is correlation between the human consciousness and the consciousness of the organization a deep coherence and resonance arises. Something we continue to experience in our work with STW. And it is important to note that we didn’t create STW, it showed itself to us, and it continues to do so.

Almost immediately after Jeff and I had committed to working together in a more focused way, we started to become aware of STW’s presence. Early on it became clear that strategic planning the “customary” way wasn’t on the agenda. I was perplexed as I knew no other way. Especially not in business. (STW is a business after all.) How would we survive in the business world if we didn’t follow the “tried and tested” model?

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Organizational Realization: A new way of leadership

In Swedish

Sourcing the Way has since the summer of 2013 developed tools and processes that support visionaries, entrepreneurs, and organizational leaders who are approaching or are already in, a process of change.

Our work is related to “Organizational Development,” but is more focused on “Organizational Realization” which means that we support the deepening of an organization’s awareness by making visible inner wisdom that helps to uncover aligned areas of focus and resonant strategies for moving forward.

We do this by creating the space needed for leaders and teams to be able to deepen their connection with the essence of the organization and its true purpose. Our experience tells us that once we open the door to deepen our understanding of the whole, circumstances begin to shift. We start to see patterns of how a more aligned and coherent entity can take form, which then supports further development and where events, if we are awake and receptive, will come into place in a way that we could not have foreseen by “thinking our way forward.”

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Organisatoriskt Förverkligande: Ett nytt sätt att leda

In English

Sourcing the Way har sedan sommaren 2013 utvecklat verktyg och processer som stödjer visionärer, entreprenörer, och företagsledare som närmar sig eller redan är i en förändringsprocess.

Vårt arbete rör sig i närheten av “Organisatorisk Utveckling” (Organizational Development) men är mer fokuserat på “Organisatoriskt Förverkligande” (Organizational Realization) vilket betyder att vi stödjer fördjupning av medvetenheten inom en organisation genom att synliggöra inre visdom, vilket i sin tur leder till klarhet i vad det är som är mest resonant i form av strategi och fokus områden.

Vi gör detta genom att skapa det utrymme som behövs för att ledare och teams skall kunna fördjupa sin kontakt med organisationens innersta natur och dess högre syfte. Vår erfarenhet säger oss att när vi väl öppnar dörren till att fördjupa vår förståelse för helheten så börjar saker att hända. Vi börjar se mönster för hur en mer sammanhängande stomme kan ta form som sedan stödjer vidare utveckling, där omständigheter, om vi är vakna och mottagliga, faller på plats på ett sätt som vi inte nödvändigtvis hade kunnat förutse genom att ‘tänka oss framåt’.

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Part 3: Subtle Levels of Communication

Over the years the Squeeze has evolved and I have come to learn that I have an ability to “feel” when a conversation is engaged at “heart” or “mind” level. Different people refer to “mind” as the higher mind, the thinking mind, or just head or brain. I chose to think of “mind” as being the thinking mind, i.e. where we process the information that we have access to, where we base our decisions and felt sense on what we already know. In terms of “heart” some people think of it as the space where we make decisions based on our feelings and emotions, others are leaning more towards understanding it to be our soul or essence. I’m leaning towards the latter.

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